It’s been a really long time coming, but I’m starting to feel comfortable opening up about this.
I think I sort of put it off for a long time, telling myself I was just being silly and that it didn’t really matter, that I’d change, or even that I was probably just projecting things I was hearing about in others onto myself, and that I was wrong to do that. Then I thought about it again, and I know I would never tell anyone else that giving themselves a comfortable label is wrong. So, more and more I have been letting myself really think about the way I feel about people and how I feel attraction, and I’m allowing myself to label that in a way that I feel really reflects me.
It’s been weighing on my mind a lot lately as I’ve learnt more and more about what being in the gray romantic spectrum really means and found that it all sort of makes sense to me in a way that no other explanation of relationships ever has. Coming into learning about these things so much later than I wish I had, I think I always just assumed I would one day just meet someone and feel what other people feel when they ‘fall in love’ but now I am beginning to think that simply isn’t the case for me.
I’m not entirely sure where I fall on the scale, but I do know now that I am on that scale.
It’s all still a little complicated, and I know I might spend years more really figuring myself out, but for now I think I feel most comfortable with demi-romantic.